This is my first attempt to write a blog post using the new format that Word Press has installed on my blog, so I have no idea what the finished product is going to look like. It reminds me of when I began blogging over five years ago, and I spent hours trying to figure out how to create a new blog, name it, and send it out into cyberspace. It took an act of faith to hit that “publish” button for the first time, and I suspect it’s going to take an equally strong act of faith to publish this post. So if the end result seems a little strange, I humbly ask you to bear with me.
As my regular readers know, adapting to change is not my strong point. I’m not against new things, it’s just that I very much prefer it when the change is a matter of my own personal choice, and not something that has been foisted upon me. I also like my change meted out in small doses, giving me time to adjust to one new thing at a time. Sadly, whoever is in charge of change seems to have hit the “fast forward button” and left the room, locking the door behind him.
So all I can do is try to adapt to this new normal which is chock-full of strange new things. When I invited some friends over for a happy hour recently and the rain prevented us from gathering on my patio, I set up chairs and small tables in the garage instead. I figured out how to navigate Facebook’s new format, and even discovered that they hadn’t done away with “Messenger” as I had initially feared. (Although they did make it hard to find.) I keep a stash of face masks in my car and hand sanitizer in my purse at all times. And now I’m blogging in a completely new format, even though I was perfectly happy with the old one.
I’m not going to lie, I wish that I could have just a tiny little break from this constant parade of change in my life, but I also know that’s probably not going to happen. This is a very odd year, and I’m sure lots of other changes are in store and that some of them won’t be good ones. (I’m just waiting for the day they announce that hand sanitizer causes cancer…..)
But no good comes from looking back on “the good old days” and wishing that I could somehow go back in time. And when I’m being completely honest with myself, I realize that those good old days weren’t always so good. I had problems and worries then, just the same as I do now…they were just different problems and worries. Plus, all the adapting I’ve had to do in recent months has shown me that I’m a little bit stronger and a little bit more flexible that I thought.
So I’ll keep plugging away, making the necessary adjustments, occasionally grieving over my losses, but also appreciating the gifts that have also come my way. And if I’m lucky, I’ll figure out this new way to blog and will once again enjoy writing my posts and be able to hit that “publish” button with confidence……